i think i can do this

so, i think maybe God laughs at me when i worry, pretty sure he does.  he probably laughs at me often.  i have decided that i seriously need to read Matthew 5 every morning.  worry gets me no where but worked up and fretful, and that's just not a good way to spend my day.  i was worried about going back to work, i prayed, God was faithfully faithful as always. i like to think that i'm a laid-back kind of gal, but i live in a world called reality so i have to be honest with myself, i'm not all that laid-back. i like to have a plan. i like the predictable.  i know this about myself, and with it comes worry when something seems out of my control.  but isn't that just the best place to be?  because i know who IS in control.  i worried about how Isaac would react to me going back to work, i had to let it go, and in doing so God made it such a smooth transition.  so, although i hate discomfort, it's good.  it's a reminder that i'm not here to be comfortable.  i'm here to live for God and rely only only only only on him....."come what may"

so yesterday was a great Saturday!  i went to the Just Between Friends 50% off day in Tulsa at the Expo Center.  it was rad, i got some great summer clothes for Isaac SUPER cheap, and only "lightly" used.  i also took a pit stop at Whole Foods, where i think i could work full time if i was a 20 something year old single girl, yeah, that would be sweet, esp if they gave discounts, b/c they are rather pricey.  do you think "organic" will ever be less expensive? dunno.  but i love their samples too.  good morning in Tulsa.  then our friends, the Hootens came to visit!  it was so great, so great to see them and to catch up.  what great people! together we all went to a famous Muskogee tourist attraction, Arrowhead Mall where there is an aquarium.  did you know Muskogee had their very own aquarium?  it's true!  full of "local" fishes....so after Isaac looked at all the brown, ugly fish, we went to the little play area for kids, on the outskirts of the food court.  there were lots of kids, most of whom didn't seem to have any parental figures around. but regardless, Isaac had fun sliding down the alligator tongue that is the slide.  not sure it's a good idea to teach kids to climb in and out of an alligator's mouth. 

kids are fun, esp at Isaac's age b/c everything is new and novel and SO INTERESTING!  if i need to buy myself a few minutes while i'm trying to get dinner ready for example, and he's crying b/c he can't be in on the cooking action, i simply pull out a spoon or ladle or some other (safe) kitchen item, and he's good for at least 30 seconds, till he realized that he still didn't get what he wants.














kevin's lesson was good today. i think my goal for this week is to do more thinking before i speak.  i tend to just talk, and say whatever comes to mind.  i have a lot of growing up to do still. but it's good, more opportunity to rely on my Lord, who gives me the strength, and has given me the Spirit to bear good fruit...if only i allow him to do so.